Pretty much took a month off. It started as a week, then two, and just snowballed from there. Was a combination of less time between work being busy and other dumb life things, and also my mood being pretty down, borderline depressed.
I listened to a few files mixed in during this time. Didn't track any of them like I should have and often it was done right before bed, which was usually pretty late. When I do this I can never tell if I'm actually falling asleep and missing most of the files or if I'm just going really deep and not consciously hearing/retaining. I always assume its the former, but not entirely sure.
Haven't had a chance to crack that Mind Play book yet either. Just not enough hours in the day, especially since a job eats up so much of it.
At any rate, seeing if I can get back into a routine/schedule starting today. Also I've been cumming all willy nilly again. If you're scoring at home, last orgasm was Feb 19th.
Feb 20th
During the day I listened to Consent is a Key and Good Boy to get back into training, as it were. Her trance trigger still works well after the short time away. These were good reintroductions and reinforcements. Then I went to Control 1, which is a very short five minute file and explores the idea of control and how/why I want it. Right before bed I then went back to Good Boys Get Afflicted to see if I can get back to need permission for an orgasm. Wanted to also try the Hypnovirus again, but it was getting late and figured I should gets some sleep.
Feb 21st
Today was Relaxation Induction, which was a nice escape after a rough day of work. Followed up with Control 2, but was interrupted by a dog right as she was about to count me up. So not the worst timing, but still annoying. It delves more into my desire for control, why I want it and how good it feels. It's especially true after work, since most of my day is people needing things from me. Being able to lay back, relax, and let someone else drive would be wonderful.
At one point during the day I stumbled on a few different variants of the 2048 game. Apparently, quite a few people made hypno versions of it. Some are seizure inducing, but others are pretty well done. One was made specifically for Shibby, another hypno domme I listened to years ago. While I love her voice and style, much of her content seemed more focused on people achieving HFO's, which isn't necessarily my goal. Plus she did a lot of other non-hypno audios, which I wasn't interested in either, so I never went too far with her content. Spent a little time falling down a rabbit hole of her files. Maybe I'll broaden my horizons a bit and cherry pick a few from her. Another strike against is her files are generally longer and I have a hard enough time squeezing in 10-15 minute sessions.
However, I did manage to have some time before bed and played three in a row before going to sleep. Started with Addiction for Toys, which you may have guessed is supposed to develop an addiction for hypnosis, mainly Aurora's files. Wondering if it worked right away, because I really had to force myself to stop and go to sleep. I followed with HypnoVirus, which once again was very effective and I felt like I was on edge without touching. When I came up I was pretty turned on and wound up touching and edging for a bit. I wanted to keep listening, but this is where I forced myself to pick one that has me sleep at the end. I went with Sexy Dreams. I think it may have worked as I remember one dream, wasn't exactly sexy, but was very different for me. I was a woman and under arrest or something? One of the guards had me insert some kind of plug dildo thing inside of me. Was very bizarre and the details are hazy, but that's all I can remember.
Feb 22nd
Busy day, but managed to squeeze in Inevitable Trigger during lunch, again reinforcing the trance trigger. Then later listened to Control 3 which is a very short, teasing file. Despite how short it is, it definitely affected me, which I take as a good sign.
A little later I tried Pleasure Dial which installs a new trigger to allow me to control the amount of pleasure I feel. During the session I could definitely feel as she turned the dial up to 40%. Afterwards I tried it on my own going up to 50% and then 90%, and I could actually feel it! Of course that led me to stroking and edging, but I had a meeting in a few minutes so stopped and turned the dial back to zero so I could move on. Adding this one to a regular rotation for sure!
Before bed I tried Waves of Pleasure but never let it finish. It has a lot of background noises I found too distracting. So I tried another one that was new to me, Shhh... I think I fell asleep for real during, caught myself snoring slightly, so missed a good chunk. It was supposed to make me unable to speak. Will need to try again some other time. Instead of sleeping like I should have, I put on Good Boys Get Enslaved. It was different than I remembered, focused more on saying her name and being aroused by it. Probably need to listen to Pleasure Compulsion again for it to be more effective. Still not feeling like sleeping, I put on the custom Cal's Curse that TwistedElegence made for me awhile back. It's funny how listening to it now I wish I had customized the script more to my liking instead of the minor modifications I made to the original. Sometimes I'm just too critical and can't shut off. Afterwards, I would up edging for a little while, listening to more of her audios, mainly her having an orgasm. Finally, I forced myself to stop and go to sleep.
Feb 23rd
Another busy day. Made some time in the afternoon for Powerless. Took me pretty deep and reinforces the trance trigger. Then Control 4. I thought these Control files would be another weekly listen, but now not so much. This one gives pleasure whenever I hear her name, but only for the day. So basically a temporary version of Pleasure Compulsion.
Slacked a bit in the afternoon so tried Seduced by Magic for the first time. Was surprised it had background music, since the majority of her files so far have none. Also there was a loud sound effect that startled me, but somehow also started pulling me down. In it she has a vial with magic smoke that comes out. I swear I could smell it! It makes you feel submissive and like a slave, which isn't usually a big ask for me.
Right before bed I tried Anesthesia Fantasy but ended it almost immediately. It had binaurals, which I normally really like, but they were too loud and almost drowning our her voice. Was too distracting so I moved on, which is a shame. Instead I listened to Corruption, but definitely fell asleep during. I woke up after the file ended. Took that as a sign and went to sleep instead of pushing my luck. I really enjoy laying in bed to listen, but there's always the risk of me falling asleep, especially late at night. Sitting in my desk chair has been more effective, though not as comfy.
Feb 24th
Right before lunch I finished the Control series with Control 5 in which she takes away your ability to orgasm. Naturally, I listened to the version without the safeword. I've been off and on edging myself all week and was very aroused when I came up and began stroking and edging some more before finally stopping to make some lunch.
Late afternoon I had some time and listened to Pleasure Center for the first time. Really enjoyed this one. She has me picture a ball in my mind that is my pleasure center and she begins touching and stroking it. I could feel the pleasure build, especially when she had me begin touching myself. She also presses her name into it so I think of her when I feel pleasure. As usual she teases then brings me up. I'm getting pretty horny and really want to cum, but can't seem to make myself do it. Wound up stroking and edging for a good half hour. Couldn't seem to stop myself or let myself cum. Finally stopped when I went slightly too far and had a small ruin. Just a very small amount of cum eventually dribbled out. Extremely frustrating.
Before bed I was going to listen to just one file and wanted to try Wax Play, but the audio quality wasn't great, so adding it to the no play list. Instead went back to HypnoVirus Mutation and I don't remember most the file but came up when told and was feeling quite aroused. Immediately followed it with HypnoVirus Amnesia. That one I remember fully. I find it interesting how sometimes I remember, but sometimes I don't, and I usually can't tell if I was asleep, in trance, both. For the Mutation file I assume in trance, since it deals with increased arousal and I felt it right away.
Still not wanting to sleep, I decided to change it up and played a file from Mistress Leslie, Always Horny Trance. It has two versions and of course I chose the denial one. This file had a lot of repetition and a separate looping voice in the left ear. Different style to be sure. Curious to try some other files from her. During the file she had me touching myself and afterwards I couldn't help but continue to stroke and edge for some time. Eventually I stopped myself and listened to Sexy Dreams before finally going to sleep. Unfortunately, I had no fun dreams I could remember.
Feb 25th
This afternoon as I wrote up the recap from last night, I've been stroking and edging myself. It's only been a week, but I really want to cum. Instead I keep teasing myself and am having a hard time stopping. After around two hours, I finally stopped to make lunch. I both really want to cum, but also want someone to tie me down, sit on my face, and tease me senseless!
No time for any files and was too tired to listen right before bed. Ironically, I did have the beginnings of a sexy dream. A bit hazy, started in a work environment and ended with a naked woman, someone I never met or even remember seeing, but I woke up before it got interesting.
Overall, pretty good first week getting back on track. Weeded out some files, unfortunately, have a good weekly base schedule, and aside from the tiny ruin, no orgasm since the 19th.
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